I want to apologize for being away for so long i have had so much trouble trying to write something, anything at all and actually keep at it.
I’m in the midst of one of the worst depressive episodes I’ve had since October of 2017 its been going on strong for 2 1/2 weeks now with no sign of letting up. So, in light of this and seeing how I can only write when I’m depressed, I’m going to use this to my advantage and tell you why its fuckedup people romanticize depression and being depressed, for whatever fucked up reason I don’t know why anyone would want to feel like this.
I want to talk about hallucinations and dissociation. Two very real and horrible things to experience alone and not many people know how to deal or support a person going through these things.
My family struggle to understand the extent of my hallucinations and dissociation. Which is my fault because I’m not vocal about them at all. Lucky for me my whole family reads my blog so this one is for you guys.
We all have times in our lives when we feel overwhelmed by our emotions and distraction is a very important part of surviving. There are moments when life is too hard and too much to deal with and you just need a break from your mind and reality for a little bit. However, distraction is not a way to live your life, you need to face what’s wrong in life eventually.
This subject is a very touchy and sensitive topic. Not only do people not understand it they also shame it for whatever reason. You cannot openly talk about this without seeming like an attention seeker, sadly.
In my short 22 years living, 12 of those years I have been majorly depressed. Now I know you must be thinking, ‘how?’ The answer to that is simply, I don’t know.
I grew up in a loving house with both my mother and father and a younger sister in a nice family suburban area but, one day something happened to me and I can’t pin point what it was exactly. (more…)
Hey there! My name is Brianna Saavedra, I’m a 22 year old female born and raised in the south eastern suburbs of Melbourne, Australia.
I blog about mental health and mental health awareness but to make one thing perfectly clear, I am in no way a professional I only have lived experience and my struggles to talk about. If you’re struggling with your mental health please go see your doctor about it.
I believe the more we talk about this the more open we become to ourselves, each other and the world and the less stigma there is surrounding around mental health.
For as long as I can remember I have kept a diary/journal and writing is the one thing I believe I can excel in, despite having dyslexia.
Things I plan on writing about,
My experiences with mental health.
The loss of my partner and how I’m (not) dealing with it.
Plus many more things I’m sure.
I’m really excited for this project and I hope you’ll stay with me on this journey!